Freedom

Magic is on my doorstep
It has been for months, I was just afraid to let it in
Feelings once so deep have been transformed

The love I once felt has evolved
Romantic love now deep appreciation
same person
different feelings, different energy
Repeated actions don't feel the same
Our lips don't fit, though our bodies do
I don't want to grasp
This love is different
This love is friendship
Friendship rooted in vulnerability, accountability, trust and support

The anger and resentment I felt from someone small
So fiery, burning through my body, wrecking havoc
It's shifted
No more intense feelings, just neutrality
No being a saint and wishing them well
No being a demon and wishing them hell

I wake up free
thinking what I want
No longer are people invading my mind

I'm on the Up & Up
I'm sure there will be speed bumps
I'm sure I will struggle
and I am unapologetically positive

I moved here with a broken heart and courage in my eyes
The Universe, like always, responded by giving me more of that
Different bodies, same lesson
the courage pushing me to fully be present
Reliving the past, staying honest and brave

I don't want to jinx it
and I feel confident to say
YES! I did it
I moved through the hurt, the fear, the insults, the unsteady ground, the anger
and here I am
Bright eyed bushy tailed

I can stand on solid ground now