Thank you.

I wrote to you today
I wanted to earlier
The words didn't come

There's no guidebook
for this

Hell, there's no guidebook
for anything
just different peoples' experiences

I just show up
And when I don't
I wonder why

With you
I ignored that voice
once so loud
It guided my every move

I felt lost
Intuition, where did you go
I can't hear you
Did I leave you in Hawai'i

I could hear her
I just ignored her
branded her as doubts

"you need to be alone"
she said
I held you tighter

Too afraid
Too wrapped up

My mind began to scream
My body rebelled
LISTEN TO YOUR SPIRIT
they shouted

I just wanted you

Your sweet smile
your sleepy grey eyes
your magnetic pull

I couldn't explain it
You drained me
and filled me up

We weren't poison
nor were we medicine

We were something unknown
yet on the tip of the tongue
waiting to be recognized

we are now
a you
and
an I

I recognize me
I hope
you recognize you

Back to square one
being with me
but who am I kidding
I wouldn't be the me
without the you

Thank you

and
I forgive you.