tidal waves

Feelings come in sets of tidal waves

I am brought out to sea
tumbling for what feels like
an eternity

Stuck under the powerful currents
I remember
don’t fight
Relax

It’s only then
can I breathe
surfacing
I search for the ground
my feet are met by no-thing
I am too far from shore

So I swim
and swim
and swim
and swim
through the discarded emotions

The moment I touch land
Ah! Sweet land!
I pass out

My exhausted body
unable to pull myself
a centimeter further

When I wake
my hands no longer
resemble my grandmothers
my skin
warm to touch
I was gifted more kisses
from the sun

Everything is a blur.
Did I experience that?

I look to the ocean
she is calm
glittering

she’s the most beautiful thing
I have ever seen